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Apr. 25th, 2007 | 12:07 pm
mood: hopefulhopeful

I've made another account for anyone who cares. i'm going to try to use it to redo this livejournal thing. every time i come onto my lynxyoukai account i find myself unable to write...hopefully, with a blank account i can write. the only reason i think it will work is that i am so used to just putting quizzes and/or nothing on this one...hopefully, with my new account i can start anew and put truth there...

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food for thought (brought on by an awesome story)

Apr. 2nd, 2007 | 10:31 pm
mood: contemplativecontemplative

If he wanted, could God kill himself? Could God be able to not do something? Could God really learn anything, could he ever not know something?

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Mar. 18th, 2007 | 04:34 am
mood: curiouscurious

I don't know if anyone here knows but I love barefooting (going sans shoes). I just love the feel of it. I was wondering if anyone else does the same thing...and I mean like outside and shit, not just in your houses. The only problem I have is that people give me weird looks (haven't tried going in a store or anything - it actually isn't illegal to go in stores sans shoes). I posted to my barefoot community asking if anyone knows of some kind of soleless sandal that wouldn't look totally gay on a dude (the only things I've seen have been girly bead things - I just want like a strap or something that would look enough like I had something on for people to pay my feet no heed -//- I'd totally go barefoot way more often if I could stop the looks). Basically, I'm looking to pay money for a strap or something that will give the illusion of the top of a sandal (ain't I smart ^_^ ?). So, anyone else practice the risque taboo that is barefooting?

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'nother 'view

Feb. 15th, 2007 | 10:33 pm
mood: bouncybouncy

from anduril_phoenix

1. What's your favorite sexual position? Doggy style. What can I say, I'm an assman. -shrugs-

2. What's your opinion of the war in Iraq? We never should have gone but we can't leave now. We kind of have to just stand behind the soldiers, they don't want to be there; it isn't there fault they were forced there. We can't go back to the days of returning soldier of Vietnam.

3. What's your favorite comfort food? If I need comfort I mainly drink a lot of water...like if I'm really pissed off, I'll down a liter o' water. So...umm...water?

4. Does ice cream cure everything? No...to tell you the truth, I'm not sure it cures much of anything.

5. What's your favorite song at the moment? Hmm...people ask this a lot. Hmm, Rodeo...maybe.

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my 'view from orions_tears

Feb. 13th, 2007 | 12:59 am
mood: contemplativecontemplative

Meme snagged from orions_tears !

01. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
02. I respond by asking you five questions of a very intimate and creepily personal nature. Or not so creepy/personal.
03. You WILL update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
04. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
05. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

/1/ Have you ever thought about marriage?
Yes, often. Marriage is a definate in my future. However, I am sadly without love right now...someday, I will find the one person who is for me, and only me.

/2/ Have you ever read anything during the course of your life that you've never told another soul about and that is the closest of close to your heart meaning you will never forget it?
Hmm, not really. I usually talk about what I read, especially if it affects me in a real way. However, there have been things that I've read that I have talked about in a general way, kinda dancing around it without explaining it's meaning to myself. So, no...and yes.

/3/ If I challenge you to write a song or poem for me, would you do it?
Hmm, at first glance I say definately. However, I fear I could not do a song (ever) or a poem that is worthy of you. I can not write music and I am not very good at poetry. I have been thinking of writing you a story but I am very bad at other literary mediums.

/4/ What is your deepest, darkest secret?
Hmm, good question. I know so little of myself and, obviously, know everything. It's just most of it is hidden away in the decrepit labrynth that is my mind. My darkest secret...I am utterly weak. I am constantly, silently, internally weeping, so scared that it's all a lie. That no one cares...that I don't matter in the least, that I will disapear in ambiguity and no one will remember me. -- God that was stupid...it is not much of a secret...T.T

/5/ Have you ever saw a lynx cub before?
Like in real life...nope, not really. I love nature shows though, so I see 'em on tv when stuff on lynxes is on. Also, I've seen young lynxes in the zoo before. Not necessarily a cub (depends on what you view a cub as) but pretty young.

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not sure (kinda a double post...sorta/kinda same thing)

Jan. 21st, 2007 | 10:43 am
mood: confusedI don't know

Not sure why I decided to post. Not sure why I'm feeling down/mad. I...just did and just am. Life hasn't really been particularily bad but, for whatever reason, I'm in a bad kinda mood. Everything just sucks right now. I keep thinking about how nice cutting would be...I know, stupid. I find myself thinking about what it'd be like...how sweet would that pain be to me... Again, stupid, but that's what I'm like. Sometimes I wonder why I don't cut...I mean, how would my family know...would those around me be able to tell and, perhaps more importantly, would they care/try to stop me. I'd think no but I'm probably wrong. They still haven't forgotten about me...I'm still visible. I still smoke too much and drink when I can. Anyway, I don't really know what I came here to say but maybe I got something out...something I wanted to say.
I feel like shit right now and I don't know why. I just feel like something is fundamentally wrong...with something. I don't know what it is that's wrong or or or I don't know. I just feel like there's something on the horizon that I can't see...a darkness rolls over the land and I'm afraid. I really am too...I just don't know what it is that I'm afraid of. This isn't what I thought I came here to write but it is...I guess. It just feels right, you know? I gotta do something about it...but...but I'm frozen. I'm just in the corner watching as the darkness rolls toward me...am I ready for it, I wonder. There is something coming and just because it rolls with the darkness doesn't mean it is necessarily bad...maybe. It's big though... God, I keep repeating myself...I must sound so stupid. I feel tired...feel like I could just sleep forever. And I hear a fell voice in my veins...I want to see my blood slide down my arm. I know, bad. Of course, as per usual, I don't really care. I really feel like...feel like going for that last ride. God, why am I like this? Why am I thinking like this? Nothing bad is even happening...it just...it feels like it's a good time to die. To feel that last high and...and I don't know. This is really nothing like what I thought I came here to say...thanks muse. Don't worry about me guys...I'd only taste a little...

Butterfly, are you still in a storm? I haven't heard from you in a while...

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got it from orions_tears who has some background on it

Dec. 13th, 2006 | 02:52 pm
mood: contemplativecontemplative

Comment and I'll give you a letter; then you have to list 10 things you love that begin with that letter. After, post this in your journal, and give out some letters of your own.

Mine was a 'B'

1. Byakugan...it's just cool :D
2. Back (as in looking back [though i shouldn't] and backside [as in ass...i'm an assman, what can i say] )
3. Booze (most anything but beer - that stuff's vile)
4. Breaking down and crying...though i don't do it as often as i feel the need to
5. Beginning something because when i first begin something i can always see how great it could be
6. Barefooting (meaning walking around with no shoes on...i just love it...i don't know why)
7. Blowing smoke (i snuck my love for smoking in...muahahahahaha)
8. Blue, like rain falling down or the great oceans stretching across the world or the sky that goes on forever
9. Being in love...even though it doesn't really work out...or hasn't in the past
10. Believing...it helps me get through the days and nights

Okies who wants to be my next victim and askes me for a letter?

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trip down memory lane...again

Dec. 1st, 2006 | 07:44 pm
mood: discontentdiscontent

Ganked from hemmingwayscat via anduril_phoenix

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, (even if we don't speak often) please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me.

It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people don't ACTUALLY remember about you.

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Sep. 19th, 2006 | 10:45 am
mood: hornyhorny

really dirty rant...keep the kiddies awayCollapse )

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took from the butterfly

Sep. 13th, 2006 | 08:57 pm

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